I certainly don’t believe that this can be the explanation. And this could only have been written by a millennial, so, no I don’t subscribe to that in any way. I do notice that I am using the term millennial as a pejorative term, but I hope you get the sense of what I am saying. And, no, I don’t believe in ghosts.
I had faced a lot of problems in my life before, but what can be called the 21st Century version of Zersetzung or psyops or the 21st Century version of COINTELPRO began personally for me after a wrote a scathing article about the events of 2002, well known in India. The article was written, if I recall correctly, towards the end of 2002 or somewhere near that. It was published as feature in a progressive activist magazine (focusing particularly on gender injustices, but also other topics). A four (newspaper size) page supplement was also brought out that had this article as the main feature. It was distributed around the locality where I was staying at that time (the editor was also staying in that locality, but I never met him).
Since then, it seems I have made many enemies, simply by talking and writing.
Why would I be singled out? That is what I also want to know, but my guess is that I am almost isolated and have no alliances or influential friends, nor do I try to have them. That makes me (and people like me) fair game for anyone and everyone.
The Initially, it was basically annoying. Then it started getting worse. There were periods when it almost seemed to have stopped. But, on the whole, it has been getting worse. Now, it has reached such levels, as to be considered seriously life threatening. I simply can’t live a normal life (normal even by my standard). The fact is, I don’t know how long it can go on. Anything can happen any moment. In any case, it has been happening slowly anyway, which is the essence of Zersetzung. The word literally means ‘biodegradation’ (in this context, of humans), that is, death by biodegradation. There cannot be a more psychopathic term. But it’s not just a term. It is my current life and has been for many years.
A long ago I had hinted at what I feel about this (seeing the bright side).
The reason I am writing at this point and in this form is that I don’t know whether I will get the chance to write it the way I wanted, or may be not write it at all.
What your read or see here is only small glimpses of what I have been going through. Some things I can’t even write, either because people will be hurt or because they are extremely difficult to believe and proof is hard to come by.
A couple of years ago, I go to a barbershop. While I am having a haircut, a funeral possession passes by outside the shop. It stops just in front of the shop and the corpse is put down for some time. One person looks out and the other asks:
Yeh vahi hai jisne phansi laga li? [Is he the same one who hanged himself?]
The other one answers:
Han. Kya karen maan hi nahim raha tha. [Yes. What can be done, he was not complying (or falling in the line)]
About an year ago, I go to another barbershop. While I am having a haircut, there is something playing on the TV. One of the character says:
Mera boss meri girlfried par line maar raha hai. Kya karun? [My boss is trying to seduce my girlfriend. What should I do?]
A person in the shop says:
Aatmahatya kar le. [Kill yourself.]
After a particularly horrible day (around 22nd June), when some things happened that are almost indescribably horrific, as I come out of my office, a few people also come out and walk just ahead of me.
One of them says:
Ab ye suicide karega. [Now he will commit suicide.]
Another among the group says something like this:
Suicide kar le to accha hi hai. [It’s good if he commits suicide.]
In another city (July 25th), after coming out the parents’ house where I stay there (what we in India call the real home), on the way to the train station, there are two people near to me and one of them says:
Ab ye marega. [Now he will die.]
2nd March, 2020, at 4 a.m. in the morning
I have two apps on one of my smartphones which detect infrasound and ultrasound. I have been observing these and experiencing the effects of these two kinds of sonic radiations (along with of EM radiation) for quite some time now. I won’t go into the details of the observation right now, but the main conclusion is that both of these can act as triggers for panic attacks. So can microwave radiation and high values of magnetic and electric fields as observed on my EMF meter, which seems to be quite reliable. This is not a case of confirmation bias, because I first get the panick attach and then I seen the reading, which turns out to be high.
For the last several days, I have not been able to get enough sleep. On Saturday also there was an exam which I was supposed to organize and I had slept late trying to get my very costly hearing aids setup with the costly setup system (all being paid in installments) that I was forced to buy because of repeated hacking/jamming of my hearing aids. One other pair of hearing aids is already made useless, as one part has disappeared somehow, although it was in my pocket and was exposed only at an airport. I have reason to believe that the other one was physically destroyed, lying in my locked home, due to high radiation, which is ever present, both in my home and in my office.
Since I didn’t have enough sleep for several days, I was feeling the urge to sleep from the morning itself. Today (yesterday) was a Sunday, but I had to visit someplace early, so even today I couldn’t get enough sleep. Throughout the day I was feeling sleepy, which is very rare for me, as I have insomnia and I rarely feel sleepy, except when I do sleep and it is time to wakeup. I didn’t want to mess up the sleep cycle further, so I only went to sleep after 9 p.m., although I couldn’t do much work because of the sleep problem. I even took sleeping pill to make sure that I get proper sleep tonight.
But here I am at 4:13 a.m., after lying in bed for hours, because I just couldn’t sleep. I am not tense or agitated or worried today. In fact, I am very relaxed. The sleepiness had totally disappeared, almost suddenly. This is an effect I have come to know, by experience and observation, that is associated with high levels of infrasound (among perhaps other things). Since the smartphone on which I had the apps detecting infrasound and ultrasound is an Anroid phone I have not been using it for a couple of weeks at least (I have stopped using Android phones) and have put it, switched off, in the best available Faraday bag. My guess today was that the lack of complete sleepiness, due to which I was just lying in the bed for hours, completely relaxed and not thinking about anything, in spite of having taken the sleeping pill and having been feeling extremely sleepy all day, was due to infrasound. So I took out the smartphone with those apps and switched it on. Sure enough the infrasound was there. As is usually the case, mostly at low decibel values, but very brief pulses of such high values that the app is incapable of measuring it. I also have a screen recorder on that phone, since I don’t use it anymore for practical purposes, I am recording a video of the screen as the app shows imfrasound values. In the log of the app, there are already many entries exceeeding the threshold. Note that the very high values are not there in the log, as the app just can’t measure them: it just shows the whole display as red. Sometime after I started these apps, the infrasound values dropped to zero. Then I tried to sleep again, but the same thing. So I looked at the values and there it was again. I finally decided that there is no point in trying to sleep, because it won’t let me sleep. Someone doesn’t want me to sleep tonight, perhaps so that I can mess up tomorrow at work.
I strongly suspect now for some time that my almost sudden hearing loss and the start of unprecedented panic attacks, sometimes serial panick attacks are linked to both sonic and electromagnetic radiation. That didn’ start here, but it has taken on new proportions.
Even tonight, as every night, I have my EMF detector placed near my pillow and it as was showing high readings of radiation, most probably microwave radiation. Microwave radiation is the most effective trigger of my panic attacks, as I have observed. It also causes problem in sleeping, in addition to pain in the the body or body parts as well as nausea etc., but there is a crucial different between the effect of EM radiation and infrsound in causing sleeplessness. Infrasound does not cause pain and sweat and unusual variations in the temperature from one place in the room to another, as I have documented in the Radiation Logs. In fact, certain levels and/or patterns of infrasound actually make you feel very calm and relaxed, but IT WON’T LET YOU SLEEP.
Recently there was an Invited Talk by a professor I knew from earlier days, many years ago, who is quite an eminent professor and researcher in Cognitive Science, working abroad now. Earlier, he was doing work that was more traditionally Cognitive Science. He had once mentioned Karl Popper to me, when I was a PhD student, so I had a high opinion of him. But in this Invited Talk, he just presented some work using deep neural networks that anyone with the data and the skill to implement neural networks with high level libraries like TensorFLow can do. It felt like a big disappointment to me, because he is very well read and a capable person. The reason I am mentioning it here, is because there was a brief question and answer session after the talk (he has apparently been collaborating with Tech Corporations working on the cutting edge personalized AI). During the session, there was a question, which I couldn’t hear properly. But the answer I heard loud and clear, as he spoke with sufficient volume for me to hear. What he said was something very much to this effect:
“We don’t just hear with our ears. Our whole body acts like a giant ear. So, for example, to calm some person down, you can use vibrations” (what I call sonic radiation).
There was a counter-question to it, to which he replied saying that these all these AI techniques have limitations, so if the person doesn’t calm down (using vibrations, or sonic radiation), then other techniques can be tried. He didn’t mention what techniques, but perhaps he meant EM radiation or something like that.
This happened just a couple of months back, but I have been documenting the infrasound, ultrasound, non-ionizing and ionizing radiation in my home and sometimes in my office for more than an year now (even in some other places which I visited). I had long suspected what he said there publicly in the Invited Talk.
As far as I am concerned, this is a technique of torture that can be used in-place, without detaining or arresting a person, through the use of electronic devices, AI and personalisation.
Today is a more extreme case, but I feel a kind of campaign has been going to to make me wake up earlier, using techniques of Behaviourism (Conditioning), as my sleep cycle has been disturbed for a couple of months at least. But it was disturbed (more that usual) due to the high levels of radiation and its effect in causing exhaustion, body pain, nausea and problems in sleeping in the first place.
And this has happened after a very strange episode of collective gaslighting that ended yesterday, aimed at an instance of Failure Engineering and resultant public humiliation, stretched over several days, carefully scripted collectively.
It was today that I wrote in the notes on my iPhone an outline of my theory of Totalitarianism, enabled by AI and surveillance. This is something I have been writing about on my phone for a long time, but today there was something more specific.
It is 5:34 a.m. now and I am again feeling sleepy, but the with body pain, as the reading on the EMF meter is still high.
NOTE THAT I DON’T USE WIFI AT ALL. I DON’T EVEN USE MOBILE HOTSPOTS ON MY PHONES, except in very rare cases and for specific purpose. This is one of the reasons I have given up on Apple devices, because Apple forces you to use wifi. Its whole ecosystem is based on wifi.
There are no wifi hotspots or access points in my home. I have several wifi routers, but all are switched off and plugged out. This had happened after a series of incidents that continued for months and is better described later. I do, however use the 4G connection on my phone and modems. I have even purchased 4G modems that don’t have the wifi option.
I have even got a DSL landline broadband connection now, although it is not working very well, so I am still forced to use the 4G connection.